在。乎。

像照片里写的说：


[在乎 有两种 一种为‘在于’ （up to u) 一种为‘在意，介意’ （care/mind)]


以前的我 似乎太在意/在乎某事/人/物


有时让我自己觉得很痛苦


那又何必呢


如今的我 虽然心里还是对某事/人/物有少许的在乎


但我宁愿选择不大在乎 这算是逃避的借口吗？


我明白 当对某人/事/物在乎 这证明对他/它有一定的热情


越多的在乎 可能只换来越大的失落感/伤感


我已选择了不大在乎 但这不代表我完全不在乎或不看重 可能只是不想想太多/转牛角尖


或许这样会让我好过一点^^


当人家选择不在乎那件事， 那我又何必太过于在乎呢？ 但至少会有少许的在乎。。。

冬。 眠。 已。 过

经过半年的冬眠，我宝贝（部落格）来个大改革吧^^


不知不觉我也懒惰写部落格快半年了=='''


借口：忙咯~~~~~~~~~哈哈哈


二话不说，先写下心里想说的话。。。。


在这段日子里，有一些人一直问我你是不是那个这个啦~~~懒得回答了咯。。。


我想要说的是---如果我是或不是你想象中的那种，那又怎样？？ 很重要吗？？


难道我说是和不是之后的对待不一样吗？？ 呵呵


所以呢~~你们觉得我是就是啦。。。不是就不是咯。。。我还是我^^（copyright黄明志）


说真的~~只要我自己过的快乐就满足了。。。






在我的字典里，暂时没有“最要好的朋友”的定义。。。只有“朋友”，“好朋友” 等^^


不是说我不把你们看得很重（你知道我在说着你们啊。。。呵呵）


而是我觉得这六个字是一种永久的责任。。。（各人可能有不同的看法XD）


日子久之后，有时友谊难免会少许淡掉（无法掌控的因素之下），所以不用这六个字是不想对你们不公平。。。


当然我也不希望日子能冲掉那些友谊。。。


其实我会此想法，可能一些人会觉得我很“怪胎”，但我就是看多周遭事物了才领悟到地~~


或许你们觉得是我想多了 或 你们会反应 “我接受唔到咯”~~ 但我没介意^^


因为每个人的人生都不一样，看到的东西也难免在所不同。。。


像很人多所说到的：有很多朋友，但知心的只有几个。。。


因为每一位认识的朋友都在我们的人生里扮演着不同角色。。。


我们就像一个杯，杯里可以着不同的饮料，饮料里也含有不同的成分。。。


因为有了这些，才会好好享用这杯饮料。。。


换句话说，因为人生中有了不同的朋友，让我们人生添上一部分的颜色，一起享受日子


除了CB号（近几年你们陪伴我最多了^^么么），家乡朋友，下乡朋友，同科系朋友，我也认识了一些网友~~


比如我老弟（哈哈你知道我在说你的），khiro，水瓶座buddy 等~~


空闲时会一起晚餐，聊天 等~~感觉不错哦^^


虽然说交网友要小心，哈哈，但对我来不管在哪里交朋友，一定要防备之心。。。


日久见人心啊。。。一些狐狸尾巴也会跑出来的。。。躲不掉的（相信每个人都看过吧）。。。哈哈


只要相处得愉快就好了。。。


爱情呢？？ 不要再问我了。。。。回家乡又被问咯==''' 以笑带过鲁~~~哈哈哈


我发现我不大敢去爱咯。。。呵呵。。。


所以现在呢先自由自由自由啦^^ 随缘吧。。。


明天开学了。。。有点懒惰咯。。。最后一个学期了。。。。


要加油也是剩下这个学期而已咯。。。好好珍惜时光吧。。。哈哈哈哈

Such a NEW LiFe @.@

Again~~~~i seem like disappear for one month dy~~


bcz no mood to blog ><


few weeks ago my last sem results cum out jor and feel a bit surprising with some of the results


v din expect too much on it.....bt anyway satisfied with that.....


Cum bec to my training~~~Ohhhhhh~~


at first feel stressful~~~haiz....first day the mood oledi spoiled by the executive....


anyway i jz treat it like ntg n keep hanging my smile on face around.....


tat time i feel like a bit innocence and helpless.......


But i try to tolerate and control my feelings......


first few days i hv no much of mood even show expression of tiredness ( i cant control that)...


i hv training at subang for two weeks dy~~~


wat i feel nw is tiring and a bit burden.....


Let me write out my schedule for weekdays daily routine

(1) Try to sleep at 10pm at nite

(2) wake up at 5am

(3) go out at 615am....take taxi to Taman melati lrt

(4) take 45mins lrt to kelana jaya .....reach thr about 710am

(5)take 30mins rapid bus to SJMC...reach bout 750am

(6) start working at 8am

(7) finish working at 450pm

(8) take 30mins rapid bus again to kelana jaya...reach thr bout 525pm

(9) take 45mins lrt again to taman melati..raech bout 615pm....

(10) take taxi to raech MU

(11) eat dinner with fren till 8pm sumting

(12) take bath+ rest+ watch movie till sleep......

wat i do nw is i jz try my best to do that.....hopefully everything will be fine....


bt right nw i suffer from back pain le....duno y....wuwuwuuwu....


i m here wish everyone those have training gmbateh and take care ya~~~



from: denny

baby~~I cum Bec le^^

oh oh oh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~my God~~~


nw i only realize that i had not been here since Novmeber last year ~~


haiz.......long story to tell le......hehehhehe



busy coursework, move house, exam, then new hse cant on9.....


those reason make me more and more far distance from my blog....


even sometime i only can on9 when i go mcd or oldtown or my fren hse~~


finalize all thing~~one thing can say is my life cant without internet....whahahahha


tats y this few months i only can stay along with my favourites------MUSIC....


kekekkeke


right now all de exam pass over dy....but another troublesome things are waiting for me to solve.....


hw is my next 3 months life without the college life???


internship??? haiz....i try to find myself le and nw still waiting d reply....hopefully can.....


if not jz take part time job lo....haiz....


another thing is i wan start to work at outside instead of helping my mum and bro at home....


some ppl may not agree with it but this is wat i plan to prepare myself for next year after graduate....


i wan to start get used to social and working life step by step le.....


if not after go out working will face sum prob of adapt to new environment and socialization....


hope that everything will be alrite and smooth.


summore nid to start my seminar project tat time le......


nw at hometown dy~~~i need to adjust my life style again le....


hehe....looking after the shop~~eating~~~hahahhahha


two more days , PEnang I m cuming larrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


long time din go penang le....excited lo.....


go enjoy ho chiak food, gai gai, playing~~~~~


between tis few months, many things happen on me as well as my surrounding fren.....


however all de passed dy bygone let bygone......looking for the future.....


and one more important is my 21st bufday together with my mama Cheng Kee and ah Hiang~~


thx for mu gang+ qiu er celebrate with me at oldtown~~~


thx for CSAG celebrate with me and Ivy at Feeling cafe~~~


Thx for my clasasmates + coursemates ---"CB hao"~~celebrate with 3 of us at Friday~~
U all really give the surprises to us le when presenting the memorable and valuable souvenir~~
summore u all say is DIY souvenir with our theme " CB hao" plus our respective position in CB hao!!!!! Omg~~~really fantastic souvenir le....meaningful~~~

Thx oso for my assistant class rep Nic giving 3 of us the bufday kisses le....hahahhahaha...
first time le i received the bufday kisses....

dun forget to thank those send bufday wish msg to me thru sms, facebook ,or orally.....

thanks u all ya^^hehehe~~although my bufday is on exam day, but with ur celebration n wishes oledu enuf make me feel warm and touchy....muackzzzzz^^

No More~~

finally i get into blog nw after such a long silence from me......


Again~~everyday jz crushed by mountain-like chunk of courseworks especially reports.....


i feel like i cant catch up some of the unit such as genetics....


mayb due to i m not gud in probability topic~~~i feel fed up with tat dy~~


somemore my recent quiz result make myself disappointed~~


i hv tried my best but i stil cant make it well~~why?? is it a mystery??


anyway wat can do is continue to folo the step til the end......


i din put high aim anymore for my studies....


as long as i hv tried my best and can pass (if possible sure want to score ^^) then enuf~~


i jz wan to be normal ppl~~i m not as good as u all think la....


then i feel sorry to my frens if my recent condition make u all uncomfortable ya~~


i noe wat is happening to me recently~~


i seemed like preoccupied recently even dun wan to talk so much.....


sudden "cool" and later sudden " active"~~~


many troublesome things keep on sticking on my body~~


i try to cope them but they cant fade away totally....


summore a special call from home was enuf to make me confusing and lost in the way~~


therefore it was urgent and i hv to bec hometown by next week....


Okie i think tats all for this ~~gonna to continue my revision for cuming soon quiz....


i will try to change myself to become more glorious and gorgeous~~XD


my gorgeous smile ,plsss stay bec ya^^






from: xiao zong

Results~~

i think tis is my first time using my english( still improving) to write my blog~~


haha~~wat i do last time is only more in mandarin and mix with few eng words....XD


although i notice that my eng is not gud enuf , i wannna to make an attempt to finish tis blog la...


fri 16102009 is the day that my nervous system is more stimulated and superactivated than other day ~~not only me ,i think all coursemates as well....


due to today is our last sem `s exam result release day ya~~


since last sem is our very first time to sit for 10 paper ( internal + external papers)


therefore v are quite worried about our results since v r nt get used to tat kind of exam style yet~~quite exhausted~~summore the difficulties really make us more stressed....


tis morning v had our lectures for 3 hours continuously 8-11am...


and the exam result were released about 10 am if i m not mistaken....


after the lectures, v went for our meals~~should i say breakfast ?? or lunch?? hahha~~confusing~~XD


then small group of us at first actually decide not to check the results yet....


haha~~mayb v assume it as boom i think so....it wil explode any time....


kar wei rush bec his home for checking dy~~~then he passed all feel quite happy~~


cz he really worried bout his results last sem and he had a bit sense that he will fail some sub...


but finally he was not in that fate~~~luckily~~


then garren went CITC for checking his result alone....cz v decide not to do that yet....


supposed v decide to check it after bec home~~~


but i think yong jie cant wait anymore ~~haha~~then he suggest us to go CITC to check since there is still lefting half an hour to have another lecture....


then meet garren there~~~he passed all too~~^^


Nic checked first~~~OMG~~~his result make us shocked for a few seconds~~


even himself oso cant believe it ya~~~hehe~~


at tat time v released the sound " Wahhhhh...." quite loudly til surrounding ppl looked at us le....


including my mama`s bf ya~~~hehe~~~paiseh ya~~tis is out of our control ya~~tis is so called reflex action ya~~~kakaka


he din get C anymore tis time~~~he really has improved by leaps and bounds !!! his results had make some of frens feel a bit sressed ya~~hoho


he did good job~~though he kept on complaining that he dun wan study anymore ,he cant make it and so on and so forth~~bla bla bla~~ but the end he did ya !!!!


few days ago he oso keep on complaining that he oso decide not to continue for study dy~~


coz he felt very tired dy~~ he say tis is not wat he wish to wan....he means study ya~~


but his aunty ask him to study for one sem first and c the results then only decide ya~~


so after he got tis gud results he has another things to worry about~~hahha


quite funny ler~~~cz he has no more excuse and proof as well to show his aunty and mum that he cant continue adv anymore since he got quite gud results....hehhee


so nic~~i believe u can do that la....just try ur best ya^^v gambateh together lo~~


actually last sem i had noticed that he really changed a lot dy~~he bcum more hardworking and smart in studies as well dy~~~keep it up ya fren~~XD


then is kiwi`s turn to check followed by me ,lookim and yong jie~~


so surprising ler~~the results are better than wat v expected~~


v think our lecturers had helped us alot~~~


especially the stereochem~~~all had the feel that like going to fail his paper last sem~~but in fact not ya^^


so i m quite happy with my stereochem paper( bachelor paper)~~cz i nt able to finish the last ques(graph) but still can get a-~~~really shocked.....


most of us r weaker in stereochem results compared to others.....haiz....


anyway let bygones be bygones ya~~~tis sem is another sem to be even more tough and burdened~~aiksss~~~


besides that i notice that one of our fren feel not happy ya~~


i think maybe he feel that his ratio (efforts: results) not in 1:1~~


between ur result r quite well dy la( dun hv C ya)~~u hv tried ur best ya~~dun overthinking ya~~


again i nid to say~~let bygones be bygones ya~~wat can do nw is fight for tis sem ya~~



for my results i have satisfied with it~~cz i hv tried my best ya~~


actually i din expect too high anymore....as long as i hv done my best then enuf.....


summore i m not hardworking enuf as u all think la....


sumtimes i really feel tired dy as nic say~~~but i nid to finish another one and half year first~~


i jz tell the truth ya~~thx god bless me as well~~


finally~~~v r still on the same line ya~~~


ACB 1~~gambateh ya~~work hard together~~graduate together!!! yeah~~~

今天的心情

“喝咖啡好处坏处看清楚”

又是八点课。。。haiz....好累咯。。。

上完2堂课，就空节3个小时~~去哪里呢？？？

讨论了很久~~废话连篇~~~就去setiawangsa jusco sushi king吃sushi咯。。。

呵呵。。。好突然的哦。。。听朋友说可以现场申请卡然后当天就能得promotion了。。

就弄了。。。很爽。。。就开始吃咯。。。赫赫。。。但是那些我心爱又好吃的很迟才出炉。。。。害我等了好久。。。

今天只顾着吃，没有拍照咯。。。哈哈。。。很不像我咯。。。

不知不觉总共吃了18盘咯。。。。疯了我。。。应该是没吃早餐的关系吧。。呵呵

然后就去走走一下~~然后回学院上practical~~

刚开始还好好的。。。。途中被一位女生给气到咯。。。

真不懂她在想什么咯~~

全部人都赞成时间表变换，只有她一个人给我什么反应~~夸张~~小题大做~~讲到好像委屈她那样~~

真的让我很不爽~~~我身为班长，我是做我应该做的事而已~~

但她的反应让我很不爽~~所以我才会用不爽的语气回答她的问题~~

我算是很冷静了。。。但她偏是要顶回我~~说什么夸张式的理由啦。。。

我已经尽量解释给她听了~~但她就是一直顶回~~连老师都听到了过来问什么事~~

omg~~我就是不要麻烦那位老师了。。。所以尽量说i think still be ok~~

但她却说出她的理由咯。。。

我不想再跟她吵下去了~~我只好去通知另一小组朋友关于时间表的变换~~

他们都赞成啊。。。虽然是辛苦了点咯。。。连续2 个practical 连在一起~

那也只是一个星期一次而已。。。。就不能适应以一下吗？

我本来当作没事了~~但过后她又过来跟我小题大做~~

那时他就说他对我的不满~~~她说我刚才对她的态度不好才会大声顶回我~~

说我的态度是让她不想跟我们一伙（她没参我们）的原因之一~~

我很冷静的回答她~~ 对不起可能是我刚才的态度让你不满~~

但我说是你的夸张式反应让我觉得我委屈你了。。。

说什么很早要来学校~~又要搭lrt~~什么啦~~这个我能明白~~

但她说一些是我不能忍受的~~

因为2 个practical连续进行~~所以没有时间休息吃东西~~

她就说什么需要时间呼吸啦，没时间吃会胃痛（甚至还扯到我什么胃痛什么不用吃药啦）。。。。。

我忍！！！我就建议她就买些面包随身带咯。。。已有空时间就可以吃咯。。。

毕竟老师是不可能每次都用整整3小时来做practical的嘛~~

因为大家都熟悉老师的作风了吧~~

但她就是不要接受咯！！连旁边的朋友都劝她了，但她就是不要！！！

我们继续“吵”~~我真的直接很不客气地对她：不要惹我到极限~~

我的忍耐度有限~~~

她根本就是没有往多方面想，没有问清楚就乱讲~~~

讲我为什么要选那个时间，为何不选其他~~~

叫我选一个大家都能的时间~~小姐~~如果能找到的话，还要来问你吗？？

明明知道我们的时间很紧迫了。。。

但她那个问题再次惹我火大了！！！！

拜托！！！不是我要换的！！是那位老师叫我问你们可不可以换的！！！

以为我吃饱没事做啊~~~（虽然之前大家有想过这样的安排，哪知道那老师和我们有一样的想法，除了那位女生！！）

我很火大的回答她：不是我要换的ok??是老师建议的~~还有我身为班长当然是要选majoriti的嘛~~不可能为了你的那小小的个人问题而放弃他们的选择~~我身为班长真的很难做人~~如果现在你是班长你会怎么做？

很火大咯！！ 当了班长第3 年从来没有人对我这样！！！她是第一位~~~让我很不想跟她聊天~~

当她解释她的原因时还会把往事来扯在一起，然后混在一起吵~~

我一直阻止她的废话，她就骂我不让她讲，说那样会让误会更大。。。。

我真的顶不顺了~~~我就说现在在讨论时间表，为何要把其他事扯在一起~~~我就说讲到最后还是没有终点的。。。为何还要把那些事扯在一起呢？？

我就直接说她~~她的心里有鬼，总是为他人想人家怎样不好的看他对她~~

事实他人可能不是那样想~~~

我就说会不会是你自己的问题？？

她说她对时间表很压力~~对很多问题很压力~~

但又说自己很在意别人对她的看法~~但会觉得自己是没问题的，有也是一些~

那我就说：与其你都这样的想法了，那我们再给什么意见，你也不听啊，那不如尝试去找第三者例如counsellor等解决心理的疑惑。。。。

过后她就一直bla bla bla不停~~~坚持她自己的立场。。。。

我们“吵”了很久一下~~不知多长时间~~

最后我忍不住他的罗索地说：那时间表ok 吗？？她就说叫第2 个pratical老师延迟半小时才开始practical ~~（荒谬~~~她以为要换就很容易咯~~aikssssss)

我真的是憋着而已！！！！我还没有爆发~~~不然后果~~~~

回去座位就继续作我们的实验~~~朋友就问我什么事？？做么聊到那样久？

说真的~~她虽然比我们年长~~但她的思想很不一样~~~连一些举动和讲的有些分歧~~

example就不多说了。。。。

还有她今天在msn personal message写的东西，我当然明白整句的意思~~感觉好像很受委屈~~~

我不在乎你在网上宣扬你对今天所改的时间表的不满~~~

我真的想不通咯~~~她在想什么~~

老师是在为我们改时间表希望我们能在星期五早点放学~~~但只有她一位反对！！！

无言！！！！！！

我领悟到一个东西就如以上的照片和它的主题

[喝咖啡好处坏处看清楚]

每个人就是要懂得分辨好和坏~~~

那你做到了？？？

我呢~~还在努力当中~~~

小宗 上

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